#11

Good afternoon,

Well here's to nothing. Dothan was not as greats as it has been before but maybe because I was comparing it to last weekend. Last weekend was wonderful. Beach. Target. Lazy days. Harry Potter. And Andy Stanley. Twas amazing. This past weekend. Not so much. It all started with an engagement that was none to pleasant for my heart. Selfish Vivi came out to play. But selfish Vivi turned into Emotional Vivi, and every single thing that was said or done, turned into tears. I hate that part of me this weekend. It could have been great, but I didn't allow it.

My favorite part was going to an old timey house filled with books. It was amazing. Tried to finish a puzzle, too stubborn and too emotional. Oh well.

I am about done with weddings. My good friend Angel is getting married on Saturday. That'll be the last one for a while. Now I need to focus on work, school, and packing for camp. Man, getting out of Alabama is going to be wonderful :).

Now I'm back in Auburn, alone. My roommate is going to be here soon! So I should probably get to cleaning, but I do miss Dothan, and Birmingham. I'm excited to go home this weekend.

Lately I have had the case of the snuggles. I hold onto my monkey my sweet Zane gave me. I miss his hand in my hand. Only a few days before I get to hold his hand and curl up on the couch and watch a movie. Maybe I will make him watch Pride and Prejudice. I've had a hunkering for Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth Bennett. Jane Austen, such an artist.

I get to see my best friend this weekend. I've missed the Slattery's. I'm so glad that they came to visit for about 15 minutes on Friday.

That should be it for now :).

Peace and Blessins

#10

I sit here waiting for Zane to make it to Auburn and have been thinking all day long about some things.

1. Women of the Bible, besides the select few, were highly unrecognized for their faith and boldness and submission.

Take Noah's wife. Nameless, yet in my opinion one of the most brave, courageous, supportive, faithful, submissive, and bold women to have ever graced the earth. To have never seen rain before, ever, and to have her husband say water will fall from the sky and the whole human race will be wiped from the earth, except you, me, our sons and their wives. Now that had to be pretty crazy thing to hear, and yet she trusted in God, that he would do what he said, but also she trusted her husband. She submitted to the will of God and the will of her husband. She supported him in every way. Wow. I want to be like her.

2. Harry Potter is Awesome :)

3. So is stumbleupon

4. My sissy graduates today. I'm so glad I get to go home for a few minutes with the most special man in my life :) #cheesy

Peace n blessins

#9

I'm being girly, and probably not going to tell the only person who reads this silly thing. BUT. I saw this. Holy Crap!

I want that!!!!! for my honeymoon. How awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

So with that being said.

The next few numbers are the simple rings I would like to have... Just to have..

#1

#2

#3

#4

#5

Now for the doozy's :)

#1 beautiful

#2

I don't think I know anymore other ones!

That should be all but had to get my thoughts out.

Peace n Blessins

#8

I've been thinking. The weary need rest. right? An obedient spirit receives favor? and wisdom comes from being obedient right? I'm thinking all these things. and realizing through logic, trek with me here, if gaining wisdom from being obedient means resting when you are weary, then you will receive favor. Wow. What a sentence full. My brain hurts :)

But in all seriousness, I realized I was going to fast. Not really pacing myself and expecting I could do so much that I probably couldn't. Now that I've rearranged some things I have more time to do what I need and do what my mother has said. This is all good. The Bible also promises that I will have a long life if I honor my parents. Well all these things came crashing down on me. I'm not superwoman, wonderwoman, batwoman, catwoman, whoever else the super heros are. I never believed I was, but I did believe I could handle more than I could chew, and quite honestly, I knew it. I was embarrassed. That should have been the first sign. But did I listen? Of course not. Thankfully 1 email sent me over the edge and I completely reconstructed everything I had thought I had built and could do. My life is now 10x simpler. Praise the One who paid my debt! I feel as if I just took a breath and I didn't even realize I was holding it. Wow.

Anyways. Now that that is out of the way, it has made me put some other things on hold that I would have liked. And who's to say that they won't happen when I want them too:)

They probably won't.

This post is just going to be a bunch of things I've learned/thought/whatever and just haven't had time to write them down.

I was thinking about tears the other day. Tears : messengers for the soul. Sometimes good, often times bad/sad. But nevertheless, messengers. What a simple thing. How creative is God to create sometime so small and simple but speaks volumes. He is amazing I tell you. And if you ever have a real good cry fest, you know where you're ballin and tears are flowing. The Bible says he keeps records of every tear. EVERY TEAR. For Vivian Leigh Turner, that would fill a library. haha. He is that big. He hurts when I hurt. He rejoices when I rejoice, He is sad when I am sad. The tears are sacred although often spilled. When He is near, and I am weak, strong, encouraged, mostly humbled, I cry. Those are my favorite tears. To be in such a presence of God that my tears won't stop. Maybe those are His favorite too.

Wow. I'm so glad to be back in Auburn.

Got some new Chacos today. To say I am excited is probably the understatement of the week. They are children's Chacos with aliens on them :) Here they are: Alien Chacos

Sweet!

Well that's it for now..

By the way, I am loving the Bible Zane got me for my birthday. Seriously. Beautiful.

And I wanna be closer to Him, so I'm diving in, abandoned before the Lord, and searching for His heart. What a beautiful Journey it's been. :)

Peace n' Blessins

#7

To say it has been a while, is an understatement.

This semester is over and it has been a wild ride. I'm not sure if anyone reads this, if yo are? Hello. If not, well it's nice to get my thoughts out. It's been a crazy semester. I miss Auburn already. I miss Zane. But I'm glad to be in Birmingham. Thinking about everything this semester, that I've been shown, or learned.

1. Stay faithful in the little things.

2. Obedience equals favor

3. Let your Yes be Yes and your No be No and you will obtain trust

Most of the stuff came with 252 and work. It was amazing, to see such simple sentences acted out in everyday life. And it was wonderful little nuggets of truth.

But this semester was like a rollercoaster. Ups and downs. Not to mention feeling like everything was upside down. I never felt more distant from the Lord and never felt nearer. To say this semester has been crazy is an understatement.

Now it's the summer time. I need to be closer to the Lord. I have expectations.

1. I need to feel closer to the Lord, everyday.

2. I need to be shown things.

3. I need to grow.

4. I need to be bolder.

5. I need faith.

I do not want to be lonely. I need His presence more than anything. And today starts that.

On a side note,

It's May. That means I get to start my new Bible. I've been doing this for 3 or 4 years now, I would guess. This time its NKJV. and it was given to me by my sweet sweet Zane for my birthday. I'm excited to read it. Too read the beauty of the Lord.

Each translation isn't a right or wrong way, I believe it is just another aspect of the Lord.

Now. Here we go. Summer 2011.

Things I would like to do/learn/have this summer?

1. An xbox. HOW BOYISH. right? but I wanna learn how to play. I want one. I wanna be able to play with the boys and then beat them.. what is it in me that has to win?

2. I want a ukelele, to play, to learn, to MASTER!

3. I want a diamond.... okay okay I'm getting out of hand.

:)

have a good night.

I'll blog tomorrow,

hopefully :)

Peace and Blessins

#6

Today has been weird. So here I am. Writing my thoughts, and the process that took place in my heart today.

I am not worthy of the Lord's love. Yet here I sit. Enveloped in it. In the Silence. I sense the Lord and His goodness. I live in a beautiful house, in a beautiful town. I go to an amazing school. I serve at an amazing Church. And God is good. He is my lover, my best friend, my Father, my Comforter, my Peace, my Provision, my Banner of Victory, my Healer, my All. He's the breaths I take, and the song I sing. He's there when I cry, when I rage, when I hope, when I doubt. He's there. He will never leave me nor forsake me. What more could I ask for. And He still wants to give me these things, in light of the fact that I am not worthy. At all. I see all the Lord has done. I have wonderful friends. They surround me everywhere. I look to my left and my right and see the people the Lord has surrounded me with. And even as I sit here in my home alone, I know one thing. There are people all over this world that love me.

I had to say that. I was on the dang island this week. I felt lonely. I felt unloved. I felt forsaken. Not just by people, but by my God. I know that Homie never leaves me nor forsakes me. The crazy thing was. I know. But I hadn't experienced in a while. So there I was sitting on the island. I talked to my good friend Mary and when I told her how I was feeling, she said she was feeling the same way. You always find the bridge off the island when you see a good friend there too.

Today was difficult. I had doubts about my future. doubts about myself. doubts about what the Lord said about me. And I totally bought into the lies that hey you'll never be good enough. It was terrible. Thankfully for me, the Lord has blessed me with relationships with friends who understand my girliness and they attack those evil thoughts and stand for me, when I feel like I'll never be able to do it alone. It was wonderful to see the Love that God has shown me through my amazing relationships. I am just in awe of who He is. I love my Savior.

#5

So, Jesus

Completely in awe of HIM

He is still ALIVE

and full well doing the impossible.

All it takes is faith

and family

a support system of some kind.

Faith

What a weird word.

ABSOLUTE trust that something will happen when one cannot even see the possiblity of it happening.

Huge faith comes from knowing a huge God.

Where would faith be,

where could faith step in,

if all we served was a God who fits in my head.

Faith

is

huge.

Even the smallest act of faith, is a huge step.

Faith

lets go of what we know,

what we control,

who we are,

and says

"Thy will be done"

Woah

Imagine the things that could happen when you release the control.

When you release your hold

and say

"Thy will be done"

Miracles

faith leads to miracles

and

miracles lead to faith

woah

How great is our God.

To be able to grab hold of what he wants for us.

The knowledge

the experiences

of Himself.

If all we do is let go.